:: The Princess Diaries ::

:: 30.11.02 ::

all good things must come to an end

you really don't know what it means to have a a vacation until you've really worked and pushed yourself to the limits. in the days of my youth, i didn't understand the wonderful relief of vacations and holiday breaks. sure, it was nice not to go to school. but, it was really just a break from art classes, PE, recess, and school "work." as you get older, you appreciate vacations more. and you learn how to truly use vacations for their intended purpose - rest. but, it hasn't been until this year that i truly and fully appreciated and understood the meaning and actuality of vacations. this little break came at a time when i was about to break and fall apart at the seams. it saved my sanity. but, like all good things, my thanksgiving break must also come to an end and on monday, i will return to work and classes. but, this too shall pass and soon, winter break will come. and that is when i will truly experience the bliss of vacation with absolutely NO work of any nature to do. only three more weeks... three more weeks... help me dear God to survive...

:: debbie 11/30/2002 11:53:00 pm [+] ::
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ONE MORE DAY!!!!

it's amazing how such a short week could make you so crazy. well, maybe not crazy, but something like it. at work today, i thought i was going to burst into tears. from what? well, i'm not quite sure. it could be a combination of stress, tiredness, being sick of the kids, and pms. and a combination of any is bad. but, my refuge is knowing the i have one more day before thanksgiving break! yahoo!!!! and what do i have to be thankful for? not completely going crazy... yet. although, the nurse i work with has offered to medicate me with paxil. oh, mrs beem, you're the best! always looking out for me!

:: debbie 11/26/2002 10:10:00 pm [+] ::
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so close, yet so far away

with the landrover still on my mind, i was heavily monitoring my car while driving back from uic. recently, i had begun to notice the thermostat rising a lot (almost to the red danger line) and tonight, it was especially high. worrying that my engine was going to overheat and my car would blow up or something (and thinking that this was my way to my landrover), i made my way home. i informed my dad about my car and he said he would look at it. and so, he did and... fixed the problem. my car just needed some anti-freeze. damn it!

but, don't you worry. i'm still thinking...

:: debbie 11/25/2002 10:45:00 pm [+] ::
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the end of me

every now and then, i look in the classifieds to see what landrovers are being sold. and they are usually way out of my budget. and when they are within my grasp, they are usually really old or have a lot of miles. but, for the past month, there has been an ad for a '95 discovery for $8,900. now, i know that's not chump change or anything, but for a landrover, that is a great price. how could the price be that low? perhaps it's been in an accident? perhaps there are a lot of miles on it? well, after a month of wondering, i called to "just see." i shouldn't have called. not only is the car in great condition, but there are only 85,000 miles on it. and it's in the exact color i want! a black exterior with a tan interior. good golly miss molly! and as i'm talking to the guy on the phone and driving to uic, i'm thinking of ways that i would be able to own this fantastic automobile and fulfill my dreams. as much as i like my car, i would LOVE to have a landrover. i don't care about about the gas. i don't care that it's a SUV. i LOVE this car.

the next step to feed into my delusions of grandeur? to actually go and look at the car. will i do it? will i actually put myself through more self-inflicted torture, dream of what could have been, and drive myself insane? you're damn right i'll go and see it! oh... ignorance is such bliss, isn't it?

:: debbie 11/25/2002 04:14:00 pm [+] ::
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to all two of my readers...

so, apparently at xanga.com, readers can post comments to what you've posted. and as tempting as this sounds, that would mean you would need to have people reading your entries. and i believe that i do not have enough readers to do this. so, i will refrain.
sorry. i know all two of my readers want to reply to what i've wrote, but you can email me or something. but, hey! thanks for reading anyway.

:: debbie 11/22/2002 08:54:00 pm [+] ::
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hula-hoop update...

brother has entered the competition. he can hula around his waist and neck. he can also dive through the hoop while it is moving. (oooo.... )
father cannot enter due to the lack of ability. no shame in that though.
daughter has not entered and likes being the spectator more.
but, mother is winning with the enjoyment factor and effort.

yes, we are a korean family and thoroughly enjoy hula-hooping.
so what? you got a problem with it?

:: debbie 11/20/2002 10:37:00 pm [+] ::
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i bet your mom can't hula-hoop like mine can.

:: debbie 11/20/2002 04:31:00 pm [+] ::
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Let's see colours that have never been seen
Let's go places no one else has been

You're in my mind all of the time
I know that's not enough
Well if the sky can crack there must be someway back
To love and only love

"Electrical Storm" - U2

:: debbie 11/19/2002 09:17:00 pm [+] ::
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my kind of town

so, i'm driving to uic today and it's a sort of a warm and sunny day out. as i'm driving down I-90/94, the chicago skyline comes into view. today, there's a bit of a haze that screens the skyline. it's just beautiful. it's as if the skyline was painted by monet. the edges of the buildings aren't so sharp and the sun's rays reflect off the the buildings to make everything look so soft. and every building from the hancock to the prudential to the sears tower just look perfect, an architect's dream. i take my eyes off of the road and begin to gaze at this marvelous skyline. just gorgeous. just one of the great things about this city is the beautiful skyline. and whenever i see it, not matter the weather or the time of day, it just blows me away. special thanks to mrs. o'leary's cow for kicking over that lantern.

:: debbie 11/19/2002 04:31:00 pm [+] ::
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ENOUGH OF THIS!!!

it's over! i'm done and through with it all! i'm done waiting! why should i sit around waiting for something that's obviously not going to happen? well, i wasn't exactly sitting around waiting, but still... enough of this crap! i don't need this in my life! it's all done and over with. good-bye... elvis has left the building... thank you very much...

:: debbie 11/18/2002 09:00:00 pm [+] ::
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i couldn't have said it better myself

i picked up two journals today from borders. but, they aren't any ordinary journals. they have these great sayings inside that are hilarious. it's like they were made just for me. it's amazing! here are some examples of what they say:

-" you're so hot. there, now do you feel better?"
-" he's so great. why can't i be attracted to him?"
-"i'm bloated. how about you?"
-"cynically hopeful"
-"i know i have a lot of clothes but i still have nothing to wear."
-"you're not alone. i don't like your boyfriend either."
-"i know he thinks he's having a conversation with me, but he's really talking with himself about himself, and i'm just nodding my head a lot."
-"i looked at him and told him he needed therapy. he asked me if i could recommend anyone. i said no, but i could tell him what was wrong with him for free."
-"so, i bought the cake and ate three bites then threw the rest in the garbage and poured dishwashing detergent over it. but there was still a part untouched so i ate it. that wasn't so bad, was it?"
-"no, i don't have impossibly high standards. i'm just trying to find someone i actually like."
-"when are you getting married? when are you getting pregnant? when are you having another baby? when does everyone mind their own business?"
-""when you ask a man what he's thinking, he usually responds, 'nothing.'"
-"you're not bitter. you're cynically hopeful."

and there are even more sayings! what a great journal! why didn't i think of this?

:: debbie 11/17/2002 10:27:00 pm [+] ::
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oh, that's why...

so, i decided to wake up without an alarm clock today seeing that i've been robbed of my sleep lately. so, when i do wake up, it's nearly 3 in the afternoon. i know, disgusting (even for me). and i, myself, was wondering what had happened. so, i wake up to make something of the rest of my day. and as i sit down to do some work at corner bakery, i realize that i'm not feeling 100%. ah, geez... i'm getting sick. that's why i slept so much. but, i was determined to get something done, so i toughed it out and got some work done. but, i gotta call it an early night tonight and sleep some MORE. ahh... i love sleep.

:: debbie 11/16/2002 08:45:00 pm [+] ::
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the three jewish rappers from NY whom i love

if you learn to love then you might love life
dip dip dive so-socialize
open up your ears and clean out your eyes
if you learn to love you're in for a surprise
it could be nice to be alive
"alive" - beastie boys

:: debbie 11/14/2002 11:08:00 pm [+] ::
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how long is too long?

how long is too long to wait for a reply? i think i'm a fairly patient person. but, there is one thing i can't stand and that's empty promises. empty promises = lies. i don't like lies either. so, a word to the wise, don't say things to me that you don't mean to carry out. i think i'm about done waiting...

:: debbie 11/14/2002 12:39:00 pm [+] ::
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oh, joyous day!

let us all celebrate for debbie has gotten out of class tonight at 6:15pm! yahoo! whatever will i do with myself? hmm... just think of all of the possibilities... on top of the early release, it only took me 20 minutes to get to uic from niles north! it normally takes me at least 45 minutes. yipee!

life isn't bad for a wednesday. i'm easy to please, can you tell?

:: debbie 11/13/2002 06:34:00 pm [+] ::
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enough to move you...

every once in a long while, comes a song that means a lot to me and moves me to tears, almost. every time i hear the introduction to "where the streets have no name," i can't help but fight back the tears that well up in my eyes. it sounds terribly corny, i know. but, there's just something about edge's intro guitar riff and larry mullen lightly tapping on the tophat until it escalates to a big crash. there is just something about that song, you know? the struggle of running until we find what we're looking for, the search for freedom. without fail, every time i sit still and listen to that song, i am moved. i'm a loser, i know.

I wanna run, I want to hide
I wanna tear down the walls
That hold me inside.
I wanna reach out
And touch the flame
Where the streets have no name.

I wanna feel sunlight on my face.
I see the dust-cloud
Disappear without a trace.
I wanna take shelter
From the poison rain
Where the streets have no name
Where the streets have no name
Where the streets have no name.

We're still building and burning down love
Burning down love.
And when I go there
I go there with you
(It's all I can do).

The city's a flood, and our love turns to rust.
We're beaten and blown by the wind
Trampled in dust.
I'll show you a place
High on a desert plain
Where the streets have no name
Where the streets have no name
Where the streets have no name.

We're still building and burning down love
Burning down love.
And when I go there
I go there with you
(It's all I can do).

"where the streets have no name" -U2

:: debbie 11/12/2002 09:28:00 pm [+] ::
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tell me why!

how come when you don't expect something difficult and complex to get done right, it comes through with flying colors?
how come when you think the simplest thing can get done without any problems, it gets all screwed up?
how come when you want to be left alone, there are people everywhere and they are especially annoying?
and how come when you want to hear from a person, he (or she) has seemed to have fallen off the face of the earth?
how come, huh? tell me, damn it! how come?!?!

can 'ya tell i'm a bit frustrated? these days, the only people i can count on is U2, David Gray, and the Beastie Boys. thanks guys. where would i be without you?

:: debbie 11/11/2002 10:32:00 pm [+] ::
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just one of those days

feel like poop today. not quite sure why... i guess it's just one of those days.

:: debbie 11/10/2002 09:16:00 pm [+] ::
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no match for me...

as i type, i am on the phone with at&t customer service...

so, earlier today, i was with mina and we were trying to send each other text messages. we have the same phone and the same plan and i couldn't send her any messages. what the heck? if we have the EXACT same phones and the EXACT same plans, how come i can't send her text messages? conveniently, we were right across the street from an at&t store, so we stopped by. and even with three people trying to look at what was going on, they couldn't help me. so, i gave customer service a call when i got home. i stated my problem and i was told that i was on the wrong plan for my phone. what the heck? apparently, even though i was sold a certain plan and signed a contract for it, that was not the plan i was supposed to get. i was being robbed! luckily, i still had everything in writing and had a copy of the advertisement for the plan. i was not going to let this go. i was told that i wasn't able to stay on the same plan i had (even without the text messaging) and the current promotional plan did not compare at all to that plan i had and even was more money. hell no! there was no way on God's green earth that i was going to settle. so, after stressing that i signed a contract and had proof of what i signed up for, arguing, and God knows how long of being put on hold, i prevailed. it goes like this: old plan - 300 minutes, 500 mobile to mobile minutes, no nights or weekends. new plan - 500 day minutes, 500 mobile to mobile minutes, and unlimited nights and weekends FOR LIFE!!! another victory for debbie and her battle against corrupt customer service.

don't try to fool me. i am "the customer is always right" personified. - debbie, the defender of customer service

:: debbie 11/10/2002 12:11:00 am [+] ::
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oh happy morning!!!

why on earth would i get up at 8 am on saturday? why, to buy tickets for the david gray concert, of course! and was it worth it? hell yeah! i got me some mainfloor seats, up close to david himself! ahhh... now, i only have to wait for february to go to the actual concert. having the tickets in my possession makes up for the crap week i had. thanks, david! i'll see you in february!

:: debbie 11/09/2002 01:28:00 pm [+] ::
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two great cds in one glorious day

as the music gods would have it, both the new best of U2 cd and the david gray cd came out today. and being the devoted and slight obsessed fan that i am, i pre-ordered both and went to a midnight release at wherehouse music in evanston. unfortunately, i had roughly three and a half hours to kill before midnight. so, i went to barnes and read some magazines. (you'll be glad to know that i've expanded my horizons and am reading newsweek and time now.) i hadn't eaten anything, so i paid a visit to jk sweets and got some grub. after eating, i had this terrible pain in my stomach and couldn't stand sitting in that restaurant/cafe, so i sat in my car. but, as i was sitting in my car, i noticed how dark and empty the street was. and then, there were some homeless guys standing on the sidewalk near my car. after i realized that i wasn't immune to danger and wasn't invincible, i took a little drive for 10 minutes (northwestern's got a nice campus there). by the time i came back, wherehouse music was open and i got my long-awaited cds. and while, the college kiddies were buying their wallflowers and justin timerlake cds, i was buying the good stuff - U2 and david gray. and let me tell you, those cds were well worth the wait and the pain. i got me some damn good cds! oh, precious music, how i love thee! and is it no wonder why i love the brits and the irish?

:: debbie 11/05/2002 10:00:00 pm [+] ::
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the asian kid with the big glasses and croakies

so, we're watching this video in my assessment class and different kids are tested according to their levels. and the last kid to be assessed was an asian boy wearing big glasses with croakies. and everyone in the class started to laugh and giggle at this poor kid from the 80's. oh, please, like these people never went through that phase in the 80's. out of all of the kids assessed, he knew the most. he blew the rest of the kids out of the water! who cares if he was older? HA! never underestimate the asian kid with big glasses!

:: debbie 11/05/2002 12:37:00 pm [+] ::
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